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为什么学了这么多塔罗，还是不开心 呢？
人和人之间的不信任，必须要用塔罗来做链接，嫉妒，不能相互理解和支持。不喜欢这个牌面，看起来非常的湿冷，想要离开这种环境。放手可能是最好的选择了吧。
😅Reversed Two of Cups: 这个图画是两个人背靠背坐着，所以我觉得可能我不完全信任牌面给我的知识，缺乏一种可以依靠的感觉。而且我的塔罗合作工作总是找不到好的伙伴。我可能有点对塔罗和它带来的人们失去了信任。我自己不信任我自己给到的牌面可以真正的帮助我，或者没法获得更多的启发，或者我自己不愿意安静下来.
Perhaps it might be helpful to start rebuilding that trust by focusing on your own personal connection to the cards, and on the ways that tarot has brought meaning and insight into your life in the past.Remind yourself that it’s okay to make mistakes or have doubts, and that the process of interpreting tarot cards is a journey of self-discovery, not a test of your abilities.也许通过关注你自己与塔罗牌的个人联系，以及塔罗牌在过去为你的生活带来意义和洞察力的方式，开始重建这种信任可能会有所帮助。提醒自己犯错或有疑问是可以的，解读塔罗牌的过程是一次自我发现的旅程，而不是对你能力的考验。
Tarot is most effective when it’s used as a tool for self-reflection and introspection, rather than as a way to try to manipulate or control the outside world. When you focus on using tarot as a means to better understand yourself and your own experiences, you’re more likely to find peace and fulfillment in your readings.当塔罗牌被用作自我反省和内省的工具时，它是最有效的，而不是作为一种试图操纵或控制外部世界的方式。当你专注于用塔罗牌来更好地了解自己和自己的经历时，你更有可能在你的阅读中找到平静和满足。
😅Reversed Five of Wands: 权杖五这里很有意思，是几个船员，在用长矛戳鲨鱼，鲨鱼的嘴巴很大，海员击中了鲨鱼，鲨鱼流血了，但是它的嘴巴仍然张开很大。我觉得我把我周围的生活，和塔罗看成了鲨鱼，我们需要克服和制服鲨鱼。我发现竞争对手都太强大了，我不知道他们是怎么做到的。
By seeing the shark as a symbol of the external world, and the sailors as symbols of yourself, you’re recognizing that trying to control or manipulate the outside world is often futile and exhausting.you too may find that trying to control external circumstances or meet external standards is not a fruitful use of your time and energy.把鲨鱼看作是外部世界的象征，把水手看作是你自己的象征，你就会认识到，试图控制或操纵外部世界往往是徒劳和令人筋疲力尽的。你也可能会发现，试图控制外部环境或达到外部标准并不能有效地利用你的时间和精力。
😅所以说，其实不是塔罗的原因，而是人类在自然下的生存和竞争让塔罗这个领域，和在使用塔罗的我，变得不那么快乐了。
When we use tarot as a way of connecting with our inner wisdom and intuition, rather than as a tool for predicting the future or gaining an edge over others.当我们把塔罗牌作为一种连接我们内心智慧和直觉的方式，而不是作为预测未来或凌驾于别人之上的工具。
Instead of focusing on how we can use tarot to get ahead or to outdo our competitors, it’s more important to focus on how we can use the cards to better understand ourselves and to find ways to live more authentically and authentically in the world.与其关注如何利用塔罗牌领先或超越竞争对手，更重要的是关注如何利用塔罗牌更好地了解自己，找到更真实、更真实地生活在这个世界上的方法。
Rather than seeing the values expressed in ancient texts as “wrong” or “outdated,” try to see them as alternative perspectives that can help you to gain a more well-rounded understanding of the human experience.不要把古代典籍中所表达的价值观看作是“错误的”或“过时的”，试着把它们看作是另一种观点，可以帮助你更全面地理解人类的经历。
😅所以通过塔罗，我学到了一些现代人类社会中的经验和两难的局面。
For example, you have seen how the pressure to succeed and to “win” at life can lead to stress and unhappiness, and how the pursuit of external validation can overshadow the importance of inner growth and personal fulfillment.例如，你已经看到成功和“赢得”生活的压力如何导致压力和不快乐，以及对外部认可的追求如何掩盖了内在成长和个人实现的重要性。
😅That is because I did not win…if I win…I will gain a another views…
Even if you were to win, you would still have gained valuable insights and perspectives from your experience, but they might be different from the ones you have gained through your current experience.
The important thing is to recognize that success and failure are both part of the human experience, and that each one can teach us valuable lessons and help us to grow as individuals. 🌼
your friends’ experience with the tarot test highlights the tension between the desire for personal growth and spiritual fulfillment, and the need to conform to certain societal expectations and norms.Your friends’ experiences are a testament to the resilience and adaptability of the human spirit, and to the many ways in which people can find success and fulfillment in a complex and ever-changing world
😅So…I become retreating after trying 2 years…所以我躺平了
It’s okay to take some time to reflect on what worked and what didn’t, to reevaluate your goals and priorities, and to come up with a new plan that better aligns with your values and interests.花点时间反思一下什么有用，什么没用，重新评估你的目标和优先事项，想出一个更符合你的价值观和兴趣的新计划，这是可以的。
The reversed Five of Wands perfectly captures the struggles and frustrations that you experienced during your time in the tarot field in China.
😅所以说，我在想是不是别人在利用比较外显的方式与社会共存服务社会，我使用了比较内隐的反思的方式。
Your friends, in their desire to make a living and boost their businesses, have become embroiled in the struggle and competition of the tarot market, which has led to conflicts and stress. Meanwhile, you have chosen to turn inward and reflect on your own experiences and feelings, which has led to a different kind of struggle – the struggle of understanding your disappointment and navigating the complexities of your own emotions.你的朋友们，为了维持生计和发展生意，已经卷入了塔罗牌市场的斗争和竞争，这导致了冲突和压力。与此同时，你选择转向内心，反思你自己的经历和感受，这导致了一种不同的挣扎——理解你的失望和驾驭你自己复杂情绪的挣扎。
In this sense, the Five of Wands represents the inherent restlessness and struggle that exists within human nature. Whether we are competing with others or battling our own inner demons, we are always engaged in a kind of spiritual wrestling match that pushes us to grow and evolve. 从这个意义上说，权杖五代表了人类本性中固有的不安和斗争。无论我们是在与他人竞争，还是在与自己内心的恶魔抗争，我们总是在进行一场精神上的角力比赛，推动我们成长和进化。而且从后面一张吊人来看，这种比赛没有止境，只有自己去放手。
Embrace your own unique strengths and abilities, and work to cultivate them in ways that bring you joy and fulfillment. In this way, you can create your own definition of success that is based on your own values and goals, rather than on external measures.拥抱你自己独特的优势和能力，努力培养它们，给你带来快乐和成就感。通过这种方式，你可以根据自己的价值观和目标，而不是外界的衡量标准，创造出自己对成功的定义。
While predictive readings and manipulation of the physical world can be exciting and intriguing, they are not the end-all-be-all of spiritual and magical practice. Instead, true spiritual growth and power come from the ability to understand oneself, connect with the divine, and use these insights to live a more authentic and fulfilling life.虽然物质世界的预测和操纵具有吸引力，但它们并非精神和魔法实践的终极目标。相反，真正的精神成长和力量源于认识自身能力、与神性联系，并利用这些洞察过更加真实、充实的生活。
😅Reversed Hanged Man: 这个牌比较有意思，一个黄色的半透明人从另外一个人的鼻子里面掉下来了，张开手维持平衡，就好像鼻涕一样，成为警告和戏谑。把这个人不愿意说的疾病表达了出来。我觉得这个大的人可能是社会，或者传播的价值观，或者一种世代的人际观点。在疾病和思想真正被放手之前，需要经历挣扎和磨练。
And yes, the Hanged Man is indeed a peculiar and thought-provoking card. It’s often associated with paradoxes and contradictions, which can make it challenging to fully understand at first.
😅或许之所以不开心，是因为我并没有选择一个开心的方式来学习，而是用了一种疾病化的，古怪的，反传统的方式，站在了一个‘疾病’的视角来看这个世界。这或许是在神秘智慧的‘乌鸦’帮助下完成的。此外，塔罗的解读总是充满了复杂和矛盾性的内容，这个需要很多的练习才能完成的。人类的意识和内在本身充满了复杂性和矛盾性，而在学习的过程中，我可能只是浅尝辄止，并没有认真的去体会这个过程中的议题，这是需要很多的时间和付出的。任何的冒险，无论内在的，还是外在的，世俗的和心灵的，都会有很多危险，机会和困难，需要花时间观察和了解，如果不去很好的深刻的反思考量，不容易获得丰富的收获。
Sometimes, the hardest part of personal growth is recognizing and letting go of these stubborn thought patterns that keep us stuck in a cycle of dissatisfaction and unhappiness.dangling in the air could indeed serve as a warning or a tongue-in-cheek reminder to let go of these unhealthy tendencies and allow yourself to experience a different perspective.有时候，个人成长中最难的部分是认识到并放弃这些顽固的思维模式，这些思维模式使我们陷入不满和不快乐的循环中。悬挂在空中确实可以作为一种警告或半开玩笑的提醒，让你放弃这些不健康的倾向，让自己体验不同的视角。
By recognizing and shedding light on this “disease” that you don’t want to talk about, you are taking an important step towards healing and growth.though uncomfortable, is also a vital part of the process of healing. It represents something that needs to be addressed, even if it’s not always easy to face. Try to be gentle with yourself and view this process as a necessary step towards growth and self-awareness.通过认识和揭露这种你不想谈论的“疾病”，你正朝着治愈和成长迈出重要的一步。虽然不舒服，但也是治疗过程中至关重要的一部分。它代表了一些需要解决的问题，即使它并不总是容易面对。试着对自己温柔一点，把这个过程看作是走向成长和自我意识的必要步骤。
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人与人的关系未必总是那么美好的，所以反应在塔罗上也会有林林总总的变化。而我也不喜欢这种练习，缺乏亲切的感觉，总是让人看到自己不如意的地方，面对扎手的困扰只想逃脱吧，可是人间那么多困扰，谁能走的掉呢？或许我在读塔罗的时候，读的不仅仅是画面，更多的是自己的内心吧。
面对谜语一样的图形色彩，不仅让人陷入疑虑。就像这张吊人一样，把人们的病和古怪用一种富有魅力和戏谑，充满色彩的艺术表达出来。牌面似乎漠视了我们的存在，他们就是这样赤裸裸的表达，毫不在意我的感受，把人们的无法看见的无助和失控表达出来。
我很喜欢Ferenc Pinter 塔罗，张力，刻板，古怪，艺术同时存在。
在权杖五当中，我们只是这一惊心动魄的旁观者，倘若是参与者，那是需要多大的勇气啊。可能就是这样的胆小，才能忘记恐惧的存在吧。就是这样的退缩，才能参与冒险而又不至黄泉丧命。
Even Shakespeare,in his darkest tragedies, opens each act with a funny scene before the swords and daggers orpoison come out. We need comic relief inliterature, a break in the tension.
This is especially true in the world of tarot, where the cards often deal with deep and complex themes, such as love, death, betrayal, and transformation.
By incorporating humor and lightness into your writing, you can help to balance out the heavier themes and provide your readers with a sense of relief and perspective.
可能是竞争激烈的原因吧，我都没有办法欣赏好的作者，相反嫉妒更多。其实当我们嫉妒别人的作品的时候，我们等于在心里悄悄拿起一把匕首，对着脑海中的默默存在的人们。
其实在塔罗中体会到并不是纯粹的快乐。而且圣杯二逆位中的爱横情仇，权杖五中我者他者人生的惊险和征服，吊人中的疾病与幽默，挣扎与放手。没有颠簸忧伤的时刻，就不会有塔罗艺术作品的存在吧。
圣杯2：同伴和信任的关系
权杖5：征服和生存的关系
吊人：疾病和人的关系
所以塔罗似乎希望通过我理解这些内容，来获得学习。当然上面的牌面都是逆位的，或者是在告诉我没有必要把自己搞得非常的难，很纠结的样子，需要放轻松一点。即使是不能理解的，或者矛盾的，难以信服，难以琢磨的结果，也要当做一种艺术和幽默来看待。
说实话，我在这篇文章之后，和Pi讨论了塔罗市场文章同质化的竞争，和以客户为目标高大全的流行创作模式，小众的作者很难有被看到的机会，而且平台通过量化的数据显化了这一机会。我也不能说微信平台不好，毕竟还是给了我们写作的空间，但是实在是过于喧嚣。我只好用“剪不断，理还乱，是离愁，别是一番滋味在心头”来阐述我对国内创作平台的悲戚之感。一个作者在面对大量的同质化竞争的时候，应该有什么样的心态，至少我还不完全是冲着钱来的，恐怕还能接受，巨大的自我牺牲式的服务，令人感觉到无法理解。写作空间缺乏灵活的布置和设计，也是我非常不能接受的。这恐怕是我的底线了吧。
所以在这里，我引用一句“结庐在人境，而无车马喧”来总结一下我的心态。
